Oneness

This morning when I was beginning to wake up, I heard the sound of a heartbeat. As I began to gain consciousness, I realized that my ear was squished under my husband's arm. This caused a sort of "echo" sounding heartbeat. As I listened to the sound of the heartbeat, I was not sure if I was hearing Gary's or mine. This got me thinking about oneness.

In Genesis 2:24, God says; "Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh." On Monday, I will be married for 24 years. In this moment I was thinking; "Where does Gary end and where do I begin?" Our lives are so wrapped up together. We have three beautiful daughter, two amazing grandsons, and a wonderful new son-in-law. My past, present, and future are full of thoughts of us together. We know eachother so well it sometimes causes arguments?!? I have learned to love the things he loves, such as golf, and he has learned to cry with me at what he calls "girlie" movies, and so on. His dreams are my dreams and mine are his. We are ONE!!! It would be impossible to separate our lives apart from death!!

Over the years, I have found marriage to be the most amazing part of life on earth and at the same time, the hardest part. It has caused me to face my own selfishness and pride more than anything else. Closeness is beautiful, but it also very revealing. My marriage has made me better by revealing the worst in me which has caused me to cry out to Jesus to help me to change. I have become more like Christ. I have learned to love more deeply, to extend more mercy, and to show more grace. I have also experienced the greatest joy life has to offer with my husband. I am a better version of myself!!

As I reflected on these thoughts and continued to listen to the sound of the heartbeat, I began to think; "Maybe this is the the sound of OUR heartbeat together." His life wrapped up in mine, and my life wrapped up in his. I am so grateful to God for this man!!! I love this oneness God has created!! And I especially love my husband!!

I think Rod Stewart describes oneness very well in a verse from his song; "You're In My Heart." It goes like this, "You're in my heart; you're in my soul. You'll be my breath should I grow old. You are my lover; you're my best friend. You're in my soul."